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Greetings All,

I'm new here, so excuse the lack of knowledge about many things acting; and remember please that this is my dream I'm pursuing; regardless of the odds. In my mind, there's no obstacle that can or will stand between me and what I want; and there's good reason for that. Stepping out of my comfort zone and into a world where I will have to pull out all the stops and truly BE WHO I'M MEANT TO BE, all 300% of me; and yet simultaneously, I'm in a position where my identity is being challenged as I'm being 'rejected' by another person. While preparing to begin a career that is pulling me toward it, my world- for many reasons- turned completely upside down; unrecognizable, and it all comes with a healthy dose of deep, dark, 'soul pain', a feeling unlike any other, though similar to death.

A loss is a loss and there's a grieving process we have to go through; I've been there, and I know that I'm soon going to be there again. Suddenly (yes, suddenly) I find that the entirety of my life is going to be brand new; nothing will be familiar; nothing will be recognizable to me except for my reflection in the mirror. And I wonder if I'll even recognize that person when I look at her. She couldn't possibly be the same- how would that be possible when everything's been "lost"; when I've been sent packing? How will I be able to endure that overwhelming future that's looming in front of me; and is loaded with challenges and pitfalls; sorrow and grief; happiness and hope. I'm hardly up to that challenge; not when I've been bashed; but I just wonder if slipping into a character and expressing my ten thousand emotions that might be cathartic; might expidite the grieving; might put me in a place where I've got too much to focus on other than my life; I've got major components of my life like responsibility; working; and working in the form of acting in commercials.

A dreamer? Everyone's going to think what they want; it doesn't matter. I have to make this complicated mess as simple as possible, and so I will.

So I'm open to hear anyone's advice on what I need to do to get started. Of course I've researched all I can, and then some, and am hoping to hear from people first hand. Thank you all so much; I'm going to need a forum to come to; I'll try hard not to pour my heart out; this isn't that type of forum.

I'm happy to be here and can't wait to meet you all,
Rhona/Phoenix